Monday

I'm feeling a little tongue-tied.  Also, anxious.  I feel like things are swirling just within the realm of control and the slightest thing could send us floating off into the ether.

Things going on:

*We're redoing the kitchen--new cabinets, new appliances--in case we decide we need to move in the near term.  We're not doing anything fancy, but since I am not remotely handy, the whole project is daunting, and everything seems to cost 50-75% more than it seems like it should.

*The nanny's daughter is sick.  In the hospital sick.  She showed up as usual this morning and told me this, and I told her to leave and go be with her daughter, but she said that she'd been there all weekend and she has family there now and has another babysitting gig this afternoon that she can't miss so she'd just as soon work and take her mind off things. But, gah--do I force the issue and insist?

*I think I found a Twos program for The Boy for the fall.  It is calm, unpretentious, relatively affordable, and totally unlike the programs to which most of The Boy's peers have applied.  All I have to do to reserve his spot is send in a check.  Why can't I make myself send in the check?

*I don't know what to do about work--now and in the future.  I really enjoy the time I spend at school.  I like working with the kids.  I hate how utterly inflexible my schedule is.  I need to tell them my news and devise an exit strategy for this school year (since my due date is at least 3 weeks before the last day of school).  My position is fairly ad hoc so I never had the expectation that I'd automatically be back next year, and if asked, I'm not sure this is the job I would want, but closing that door feels scary.

And the fun thing:

*The husband and I are  going away for a weekend--a weekend without The Boy.  My parents have agreed to watch him in their unchild-proofed house that is a plane ride away, but we're taking them up on it.  God help us.   

Comments

[Cat, Galloping]

send the check for the Twos program! seriously, it sounds great.

maybe the nanny doesn't want to leave because she needs the pay?

congrats on the upcoming weekend away. sounds great! (we still haven't gotten up the nerve. sigh.)

[abogada]

Wow -- have fun on your weekend!

[Monica]

I waited until 3 weeks before H started school to send the check. It's not an easy thing to do. Send it in when you're ready.

I'm guessing the nanny is being honest. She probably needs a break from the hospital. Offering was very kind of you, but I wouldn't insist that she leave.

Congrats on the weekend away!

[cat]

May this weekend bring you some quiet time to relax and think about things.

You can't send the check cause it means he grows up more. That is not easy. *hug*

[Moxie]

Figure out what it is that's making you hesitate about the program. In my case, I thought the director of the school was nuts. Turns out she is, but I'm so glad my friend convinced me to do the school anyway, since the teachers are amazing and El C loves it with the intensity of a thousand white-hot suns. Are you maybe feeling conflicted about having the boy be grown-up enough to do a program next year? I waited until 3.5 because I was. I don't regret it, but don't think it would have been too soon if we had started then.

The good thing about the weekend: It's your parents' problem, not yours.

[Laura]

Sounds like alotta good stuff going on ... you have a nanny with a good work ethic (!!), fun construction projects (fun for me, not for everybody!), some good fun for the Boy in his new program, and to top it off, a mini-vacation for you! I'm confused though ... are you flying to drop off The Boy and then vacationing nearby, or continuing on elsewhere?

[Toni]

I'm still going through our kitchen remodel we started in September. Ugh. But the after - it's beautiful. Definitely worth the eating in the basement from a hot plate and kiddie table for two weeks :) But I feel your pain!

Good luck on all the decisions. It's hard to deal with them all - especially on a Monday. I hope that the rest of the week gives you better insight!!

[JK]

Remodels suck and suck the money right out of your pocket! We just finished one. Ohhh boy! And then, in addition to the cost of everything there's the, "Oh if we just did this too," phenomenon.

Re: Work... Is there something related to teaching you could do that had more flexible hours? Would you be qualified to teach at a University or in a Teacher Professional Development Program? Those tend to be more flexible.

I totally wish there were more options for women who want to work "a little."