Recuperation

Thank you for your well wishes.  I don't know whether it was rotavirus or just some other pernicious stomach virus, but The Girl is getting better.  Slowly. 

I had all but weaned--The Girl really loved her solids and bottles of formula and wasn't especially interested in nursing except as a means to achieve napdom.  As unenthusiastic as I am about breastfeeding, I still had some regrets about not prolonging this stage of life--especially since it's unlikely that I'll be doing it again.  The guilt grew when The Girl got sick, and it became clear that breast milk was the only thing that didn't make her vomit instantly--whether because it was easier for her to digest or because there wasn't really that much for her to consume was not clear.

But now we're right back in it.  The Girl is all about nursing these days, and I have run the gamut of emotions from being grateful for this second chance to being quietly resentful that I once again bear  this responsibility.

And, of course, this illness  happened to fall as I was finishing up a freelance project--a  project that was already FUBAR because at some point along the way Word crashed (possibly user error), and I lost 95% of the work I had done.  Thus, it's been hard not to see the whole experience as a sign (in a burning bush kind of way) that this freelance thing is not meant to be.  I am trying to be optimistic, but so far the concept of work/life balance is seeming like a myth.

 

Comments

[Jill]

I'm sorry about the work stuff, but glad she is better. Nothing scarier than a sick baby. And don't make any decisions about what this all means about work. Give it some time, I'm thinking.

[Cecily]

I always found that after Tori was sick the nursing settled down in a couple weeks. Funny, I kind of miss it now that she's done.

I don't mean to do a drive-by, but can you program word to auto save for yourself? I have mine set up to auto save every minute or so; that way I never lose more than a minute's work when I fuck something up. Cause I do, all the time. :D

[caramama]

Glad the Girl is feeling better. I hope the nursing goes down soon, and that you get some enjoyment out of it before it's over.

Don't give up on the freelancing yet. I don't think it's a sign of anything except that it's all hard work. Although that really sucks about losing the work.

[swissmiss]

I'm glad the Girl is feeling better.

This happened to me, too - we were all but weaned then Small Boy got all pukey sick and he went from once a day to six times a day again. I had the same feelings - glad I was able to comfort him and give him something healthy he'd consume, annoyed that our easy path to self-weaning got bumpy. We eventually weaned four months after the sick incident, but that was me not trying *at all* to do it.

[snickollet]

Glad the girl is getting better. Sorry it's slowly.

I was unable to comment on your post about the ER because there were so many distressing things to comment on I didn't know where to begin. Let's hope you don't need to go back there for a long time. Like ever.