Well, it turns out that the pee stick was right and this cycle has ended, or since I'm focusing on silver linings, you might say the next cycle has begun. How do you like that optimism? I've called the clinic to let them know I'll be there for Day 3 bloodwork on Saturday. On the one hand, I'm hoping we stick with the Bravelle since I have a bunch left from the last cycle, but on the other, since I only produced one mature follicle, maybe we'll investigate some other options.
The negative HPT really broke my fall so I'm okay--or okay as you can be when your insides are sloughing off and your codeine containing drugs are in your medicine cabinet at home.* Doh! A couple or 10 medicinal margaritas should fix me right up, and then I'll hop back in with both feet.
This new cycle is offically our 24th, so it's the two-year bookend of The Project, as we like to call it. There's not much that could make this milestone much worse except for the possibility that Saturday's ultrasound will reveal cysts, and I'll have to take a rest cycle. But we're gonna pull a Scarlett O'Hara, and think about that tomorrow.
*I'm just being dramatic. Codeine, while fun, is not strictly necessary.
Sorry the pee stick was right, but good for you for finding an optimistic spin on all of this.
Maybe to get more follies you will just need a higher does of Bravelle for all of the stim days instead of increasing the dose part-way through like last time. Do you think they would switch meds that quickly?
Hang in there if you are told to wait out a cycle. It doesn't mean you can't still try. From personal experience I can confirm that a rest cycle is definitely not the worst thing. It has, in fact, made me more relaxed about the whole thing. (Well, except for the psycho day when we didn't BD on my Peak day.) Perhaps it's knowing that if this cycle is a bust, I have another good shot with the next injectables/IUI cycle.
Oh, and either Gonzalez y Gonzalez or Maryann's margaritas might be just the medicine you're looking for. Yummy and strong.
-Julie
BTW, our code name for this TTC madness is also "The Project." ;-)
Posted by: JulieBean | February 26, 2004 at 03:15 PM
Julie--One of my classes tonight meets literally around the corner from Gonzalez y Gonzalez so I may have to make a pit stop.
Though I will certainly bellyache about it if it comes to pass, on some level I know a rest cycle wouldn't really be a terrible thing.
Posted by: Lisa | February 26, 2004 at 03:48 PM
Aw, Lisa, I'm so sorry. It's a big disappointment even when the HPT cushions it a bit.
If you get the all-clear for this month, you and I will be cranky-ass cycle buddies. My period is impatiently expected any minute.
Posted by: Julie | February 26, 2004 at 04:50 PM
So sorry. I'm so new to this I can't think of what to say. I don't know what I'd want someone to say to me either. I hope you get the all clear on Saturday.
Posted by: JJ | February 26, 2004 at 06:13 PM
Damn. Well, here's to getting the go-ahead from the docs.
Posted by: getupgrrl | February 26, 2004 at 11:06 PM
We got our definite "not happening" news on the same day. I hope we can share our next cycle and then never have to do it again. I'm thinking about you.
Posted by: Monica | February 26, 2004 at 11:55 PM
Oh CRAP! I'm SO sorry. Yeah, those darn pee sticks have always been way too "accurate" for me in the past. :-(
Good for you for trying to see the silver lining. Here's hoping you get the a-ok for your next cycle and you don't have to sit one out. IF by chance you DO, you might want to BD on your own. It might be an off-chance, but we did manage to conceive successfully on our own after a failed IVF cycle. Total luck, I admit, but hey, it's always worth a shot.
*hugs*
Posted by: Heidi | February 28, 2004 at 03:31 AM