Tomorrow, Tomorrow

Well, tomorrow's the IUI. I’ve got lots of thoughts bouncing around in my head that I’ve been trying to articulate, but mostly it comes to this: I so badly want this to work. I wish it didn’t feel so self-serving to say that, but it's all I've got.

I don't want to have to think about what happens if it doesn't work, and I don't want to worry about the money, and the time, and whether there's a reason this is happening to me. I don't want to feel this out of control of my own life anymore. I don't want to try to accept that this just wan't meant to be. I don't want to look on the bright side of things. I don't want to count my blessings.

I just want this. Am I really asking too much?

Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.

Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.

--Langston Hughes

Comments

[Julie]

Good God, am I ready for one of my friends inside the computer to hit it lucky. I hope this is it, Lisa.

[Jo]

Yeah, go Lisa!

[Julia S]

Life for me ain't been no crystal stair...

Man! I love Langston Hughes! Love him! Love him so much. That quote alone should guarantee your IUI success AND your place in fertile heaven- were there any justice in the world. And there most likely is.

Very, very best wishes on a successful day tomorrow.

[Simone]

"Tomorrow, tomorrow, I Love Ya, Tomorrow"

Hope that's not the last song & dance act I do this month! Best wishes & thoughts for you. We are all right there with you, hoping for ONE thing!!

[Heidi]

No, it's not too much too ask. *hugs* It's what you deserve and what you should get. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for you!

[Monica]

Lisa, you are NOT asking too much. I'll be thinking about you tomorrow.

[Julia]

Lisa, I'm thinking of you today... I have good feelings about it, for whatever that's worth.

[Lisa]

Thanks ladies. It helps to have you in my corner.